Thursday, April 22, 2010

act, love, walk



again, this week at prayer, we took time to listen for what the Lord was saying. as i quieted my heart and mind and surrendered my pen, i wrote what God impressed on my heart.
 My beloved, I have called you out, to be holy, set apart, separate. I have heard your cries. I have heard your prayers. I have heard your heart. 


Have you heard Mine? Do you know what I desire? What I long for?


Its you - you alone. Not what you can do. Just you, the real you. Come as you are. Don’t put on a show - just be yourself. Present yourself (your whole self) as an offering. I don’t need your money. I want you. Open your heart to me. Become transparent.


Its simple, this life - this walk. Stop making it more complicated than it is. Act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with Me. Walk in the light, as I am in the light. Stay close. I am before you and behind you and beside you. Keep following My lead.


Lets hold hands, like a Father and a child. Lets link arms, like friends. Lets embrace and dance like lovers as we move forward together. 


I am with you even now. When everything trembles and shakes around you, I am there, leading you through the chaos. Keep your eyes locked into My gaze, then you won’t even see the calamity on all sides. I am bringing you through it. Lean on Me.


Stop looking at the problems. See Me - the Answer. See My heart for you and the lost. Keep your focus.
Then the verses 2 Peter 1:3-11 came to mind…


Everything that goes into a life of pleasing God has been miraculously given to us by getting to know, personally and intimately, the One who invited us to God. The best invitation we ever received! We were also given absolutely terrific promises to pass on to you - your tickets to participation in the life of God after you turned your back on a world corrupted by lust.
So don’t lose a minute in building on what you’ve been given, complementing your basic faith with good character, spiritual understanding, alert discipline, passionate patience, reverent wonder, warm friendliness, and generous love, each dimension fitting into and developing the others. With these qualities active and growing in your lives, no grass will grow under your feet, no day will pass without its reward as you mature in your experience of our Master Jesus. Without these qualities you can’t see what’s right before you, oblivious that your old sinful life has been wiped off the books.
So, friends, confirm God’s invitation to you, his choice of you. Don’t put it off; do it now. Do this, and you’ll have your life on a firm footing, the streets paved and the way wide open into the eternal kingdom of our Master and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

be still and know



on sunday nights, at our church, we have an hour long prayer time. this past week, for the first 30 minutes, we sat in silence, listening. because prayer doesn't mean we have to always talk. its supposed to be a conversation with God. and a good conversation involves both talking and listening. so, we listened. and this is what God impressed on me in those 30 minutes.

communion is My heart. I want closeness, intimacy, oneness with My people. I have made the way of your salvation. receive it and move forward into deep communion with Me. rejoice in your salvation! and have eternal life now in the land of the living. walk with Me in the cool of the day. invite Me in and I will dine with you. eat the bread of My body and drink the wine of My blood. and be filled with Me. I created you to commune with Me. I am with you. I never leave you.

I desire that all would come to this true, deep knowledge of Me. you are My witness. give your testimony to the lost (your neighbor, a stranger). testify of My great love. just as i demonstrated My love (by dying for you), you will need to demonstrate your love (for Me and for each other and for the lost). have communion with Me and with one another.

the lost are as orphans, wandering alone without the knowledge of a Father. see them how I see them, with this kind of compassion. they are lonely. they don't know where their Home is. they don't know who to trust. they need Hope. give them the reason for the Hope you have. tell them, show them, that they have a Father and they have a Family - that they are not alone. they can have real closeness with the One who created them, the One who loves them more than any other.

if this Love is real, then its worth sharing.

Friday, April 9, 2010

damsel in distress



tonight i went to a women's event at NorthGate Church. honestly, beforehand, i wasn't totally excited about going. i had a few friends who i knew would be there and wanted me to go. but other than that, i had no idea why i was there. (great attitude, right?!)

but once i was there, and we started pressing in to God's presence in worship, i knew i was in the right place. at one point, when katie was leading worship, she sensed the Lord tell her that He heard our singing to Him, and that He wanted to sing over us. so, i just felt like i should get out my notepad and write whatever song He wanted to sing over me. little did i know that the very words He gave me would be the exact topic taught on that night.

i saw you there, a damsel in distress. your face was covered in the dirt. you lay in the muck, thinking you weren't worth anything.

but your eyes - one look from your eyes, that was all it took. I was undone for you. I could see behind the filth that you were mine. so I came to rescue you. I came to the muck and the filth, and I found you.

I want to show you who you really are. I have made a way for you. I have the cleansing flow. Wash yourself in my love. its all you'll ever need.

open your eyes. see what I see. I'll give you my vision. you are a pearl. you are clean. you are no longer a damsel in distress. you are my queen. you always were.

do not ever be confused of your identity ever again. I am your Saviour.

its not your surroundings that tell you who you are; not your circumstances. what I say - thats the truth of who you are, my beloved.

Monday, March 29, 2010

what to buy

we live in a nation obsessed with consumerism. its a place brimming with wealth and a people who think they've got it all figured out, and don't need a thing (especially) from God.

God talks about a people like this in the book of revelation. but they are not just a nation, they are people of the Church of Laodicea...


"I know you inside and out, and find little to my liking. You're not cold, you're not hot--far better to be either cold or hot! You're stale. You're stagnant. You make me want to vomit. You brag, 'I'm rich, I've got it made, I need nothing for anyone' oblivious that in fact you're a pitiful, blind beggar, threadbare and homeless." -Revelation 3:15-17

the word Laodicea is two words combined. the first meaning "people", the second meaning "opinions", "decisions", or "principal". in the era of the church of Laodicea, they trust in their ability to rule themselves, judging and deciding matters to the exclusion of Christ's rule within His Church.

i believe that Spiritually, this is right where the american church is. comfortable, complacent, apathetic, unexcited. and the ideas of a democratic republic government have invaded the way the church operates. not only that, but being so financially and materially prosperous seems to have quenched passion, dependence on, and desperation for the Lord. i pray that the american church would wake up and see things as they really are. though She thinks She is rich and needs nothing, She is spiritually wretched, pitiful, poor, blind, and naked. God, let eyes be open and let revelation of the truth come.

thankfully, God is not willing that She remain this way. He gives Her the chance to change, and to see that She does need Him. He loves the Church so much, and He knows how to speak to Her in a way She can understand.

He knows that we are consumers, obsessed with buying, possessing, more. And given that, He speaks to us in our language - He tells us what we should buy.

"Here's what I want you to do: Buy your gold from me, gold that's been through the refiner's fire. Then you'll be rich. Buy your clothes from me, white clothes designed in Heaven. You've gone around half-naked long enough. And buy medicine for your eyes from me so you can see, really see." -Revelation 3:18

rather than focus on investing in merely financial & material wealth, God counsels us to buy from Him, things that will not perish. First, He says to buy gold, refined in fire. gold is refined and purified in a furnace. Here, gold represents a strong faith that has been tested by fiery trials and has been made pure through perseverance. with this faith, we are made rich!

in a culture of wealth & material possession, clothing is more than a covering for our bodies. for many, clothes are a defining symbol of our identity and self image. no matter the name brand, the expense, or what clothes represent on the outside, if the inside is corrupt the outer garments become tainted and stained. God says to buy from Him white clothes. In doing so, they will be like those worn in revelation by Jesus, the redeemer and overcomer. these white clothes represent clothing ourselves in His righteousness.

white clothes are also a representation of a Bride. we are to prepare ourselves for the wedding, of the Church and the Lover of our souls. the Bride ought to make herself ready. so we must always be clothed and ready for Jesus' return. why would we ever want to remove these garments of righteousness and purity? they are not clothes for just trying on - they are to be as a new skin, a new way of life, a new identity.

God also counsels us to buy salve for the eyes to see. in laodicea, eye salve was a medicine they were known for throughout the world. but ironically, God called them blind. we must not think that just because we have physical eyes, that we can see. our spiritual eyes must be opened, and we need God to cure this blindness. we must recognize the hour. we need to be able to see what the Father is doing, so that we know what we should do, just as Christ did only what He saw the Father doing. we need to have clear vision, free of specks and logs. we need to fix our gaze on Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith. to be focused on Him, above anything else. we need the eyes of a dove, totally devoted and without distraction, so in love with the Lord that nothing turns us from his direction.


"The people I love, I call to account--prod and correct and guide so that they'll live at their best. Up on your feet, then! About face! Run after God! Look at me, I stand at the door. I knock. If you hear me call and open the door, I'll come right in and sit down to supper with you. Conquerors will sit alongside me at the head table, just as I, having conquered, took the place of honor at the side of my Father. That's my gift to the conquerors! Are your ears awake? Listen. Listen to the Wind Words, the Spirit blowing through the churches." - Revelation 3:19-22

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Saint Patrick's Prayer


I arise today
Through a mighty strength, the invocation of the Trinity,
Through the belief in the threeness,
Through the confession of the oneness
Of the Creator of Creation.
I arise today
Through the strength of Christ's birth with his baptism,
Through the strength of his crucifixion with his burial,
Through the strength of his resurrection with his ascension,
Through the strength of his descent for the Judgment Day.
I arise today
Through the strength of the love of Cherubim,
In obedience of angels,
In the service of archangels,
In hope of resurrection to meet with reward,
In prayers of patriarchs,
In predictions of prophets,
In preaching of apostles,
In faith of confessors,
In innocence of holy virgins,
In deeds of righteous men.
I arise today
Through the strength of heaven:
Light of sun,
Radiance of moon,
Splendor of fire,
Speed of lightning,
Swiftness of wind,
Depth of sea,
Stability of earth,
Firmness of rock.
I arise today
Through God's strength to pilot me:
God's might to uphold me,
God's wisdom to guide me,
God's eye to look before me,
God's ear to hear me,
God's word to speak for me,
God's hand to guard me,
God's way to lie before me,
God's shield to protect me,
God's host to save me
From snares of demons,
From temptations of vices,
From everyone who shall wish me ill,
Afar and anear,
Alone and in multitude.
I summon today all these powers between me and those evils,
Against every cruel merciless power that may oppose my body and soul,
Against incantations of false prophets,
Against black laws of pagandom
Against false laws of heretics,
Against craft of idolatry,
Against spells of witches and smiths and wizards,
Against every knowledge that corrupts man's body and soul.
Christ to shield me today
Against poison, against burning,
Against drowning, against wounding,
So that there may come to me abundance of reward.
Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me,
Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down, Christ when I sit down, Christ when I arise,
Christ in the heart of every man who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks of me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.
I arise today
Through a mighty strength, the invocation of the Trinity,
Through belief in the threeness,
Through confession of the oneness,
Of the Creator of Creation.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

a dream

I had an interesting dream the other night. Usually I don't remember my dreams. But this time, I have pieces left in my memory.

What I remember is that I was standing on a large stage, like an old theater. And I was in some sort of theatrical production. My role was small, but I felt a lot of pressure to get it right. In fact, the American Idol judges were somewhere in the audience. So I knew that my performance was being critiqued.

I was dressed in a butler's outfit. So, I guess my role was a servant to a wealthy master. There were many of us. I just stood perfectly still, waiting to be called upon. As I stood on the stage, I felt the heat of the lights and the thick costume I was wearing became cumbersome. As I was trying to breathe, I realized that I was also wearing a mask. The hot breath was making it humid in my mask, and I was starting to really feel uncomfortable. I knew I had to get this mask off so that I could truly breathe. I found a way to get off stage and immediately tore the mask off and took deep cool breaths.

Off stage, I realized that I was in a mansion. There were people in the mansion, hanging out, doing things, but I wasn't really sure who they were or what they were about. All I know is that they suddenly became concerned about some other people coming there to get them. And this sounded like a bad thing. People were preparing for the worst.

Then He was there. My Boss, my Master. And He was there for me! To protect me. He didn't even care that I was just a servant. In fact, He didn't treat me that way at all. It was more like we were good friends. He took my hand and began to lead me upstairs to the 3rd floor of the mansion. There were still people there concerned about the approaching danger. So, they didn't even notice us there with them.

Then my Master, now my Friend, walked through the wall into another room. He just disappeared right into the wall. I didn't want to be without Him, so I decided if He could do it, then I could too. So, I sort of held my breath and jumped forward through the wall. As I floated through it, I saw in slow motion the insides of the wall. I couldn't believe what was happening. As I landed, unharmed in the next room, my Friend smiled at me.

Then He instructed me to go upstairs to the attic. Once there, He told me to walk through the wall and I would find myself in a secret room within the mansion. There were no doors or windows there. So, only the two of us could get to it. He would follow later. First I had to get ready. I was still in my servants clothes. He would leave me a beautiful gown to change in to. And once I was ready, He would join me there, and would take me into His hidden chamber, within the heart of the mansion, so we could be together forever.

Before any of that could happen, I woke up.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

inspired reading



Over the past year, I have probably read more than the last several years of my life combined. And I'm starting to see a pattern in the things that I've been reading. Each book has brought me deeper in love with Jesus.

It all started when I finally got my hands on Captivating. It took me almost 6 months to read the whole thing, but when I finally did, the Lord really started moving in my life through the revelations from it. In a nutshell, what I learned from reading and studying Captivating is that God made me the way I am for a reason. As a woman, my heart longs to play an essential role in an exciting adventure, longs to be romanced, and longs to be found beautiful and captivating. And that I am. In order to really believe these things about my heart, I had to see what held me back from believing them. I had to come face to face with my "demons", so to speak. With my past. With the lies in my head and my heart that would try to tell me otherwise. It wasn't pretty. But I began to get some real breakthrough in my life, and for the first time, see things as they really were.

Then I read a book called Thy Hidden Ones. This book helped unravel the mystery of the book of the Bible: Song of Solomon. Not only that, but it helped me see that Jesus is not just my Lord and Savior, but the Lover of my soul! Reading this book really helped me ignite a love for Jesus in my heart, like never before. No more could I see Him as only a master or a friend. He is the Bridegroom and I am His Bride.

After that, I read a book called The Sacred Romance. This book painted a picture of the world in a way I had never thought to look at it. As a romance. I fell more in love with the Lord with almost every chapter. And now I can see that a romance is all He ever wanted.

Ironically, after that, I read The Twilight Saga. I never thought I would be one to read these books. But after having so many friends read them and talk about them all the time, I have to admit, I got a little jealous. I wanted to be a part of the club. So, when Jeremy left for a month in Mexico, I decided it was as good a time as any to start. At first I was skeptical, thinking because I wasn't reading a "Christian" book that I might be doing something wrong. Ha. But as I got further into it, I realized that truth is truth, no matter where you find it. The principles of eternal love, self-control, loyalty, sacrifice, and so much more were throughout the pages. And I could see, ever so slightly, the picture of a Lover, longing for His bride. Ya, its not a perfect analogy here, but its neat how God will use things to teach us about His character.

Now, I'm starting to read a book called The Secret of the Stairs. This is another book about the Song of Solomon, this time taking the reader through the journey of developing and maintaining an intimate relationship with the Lord. I'm only in the first chapter, and I can already tell its going to be life changing.

I'm so grateful for these books that God has used to help me understand His love for me more. The book that best describes that is, of course, the Bible. And I'm so thankful for the revelation of it! I hope to one day write a book of my own, on whatever God tells me to. But until then, I'll just keep reading.

Friday, February 19, 2010

God & coffee

about 7 years ago, a book came out that helped revolutionize the way that i think about God. it was called Blue Like Jazz: Nonreligious Thoughts on Christian Spirituality. for some people, this book was offense, too post-modern, or lacking theological substance. but to me, it was real and challenging. while i can't say i agree with everything the author stands for, i appreciated his candor and questioning, which made me have to look deeper into the Word, my faith, and my walk with Jesus.

the thing that most impacted me though didn't even come from the pages of the book. i was actually at some friends' house in Nashville, talking about the book. a group of us had recently read it, and heard about a study guide for it. so we decided to give it a try. within the first week, i had encountered a question that, little did i know, would rock my world and change the way i saw God, forever.

the question was this: if you were in your car, driving to a coffee shop to meet with God (literally in person), what would be going through your mind? are you worried about how He would receive you? are you excited about seeing Him in person?

at first, it seemed easy - we all know the "right" answers, don't we?oh, it would be great to sip a latte with God and enjoy His presence!

then, it seemed kind of offensive. wow, isn't this a bit sacrilegious. like God doesn't have better things to do than meet me at Starbucks for a frappacino and coffee talk?!

and then, when i actually gave it some thought, i was shocked to discover my own answer.

my real reaction to the idea of sitting down and meeting with God over coffee was... complete terror. and not the good, healthy respecting kind of terror. but seriously, terror. because i honestly believed that the things He would have to say would pierce my heart and cut me to the bone. i truly imagined that God would sit there across from me and tell me how disappointed in me He was and proceed to list off all the things in my life that just didn't measure up. He would be angry with me and frustrated with me and generally disgusted. i was sick to my stomach at the thought of actually spending time with Him.

as soon as i realized this was my reaction to the question, i was almost brought to tears. i immediately saw how false my thinking was and i really couldn't believe that is what i thought! how could possibly attribute such awful characteristics to God, the one who made me, loves me, and saved me!? where did i get these ideas? and how long had i been deceived into thinking that God was like this meanie in my imagination?

that's not God. God is love! and love isn't mean. Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

so, what is your real reaction? how would you honestly answer the question? if you were meeting God for coffee, what would you think and what would He say? and what does your answer say about who you think God really is?

it's taken me years to truly begin to get a revelation of the love God has for me. and i know i'll be discovering more about His love over the rest of my life. its so big that i will never possibly understand it all. but the more i get it, the more it changes me. knowing God, learning His character, and just spending time with Him - that's what I was made for. that's what you were made for. so grab a cup of coffee and get with God. you won't regret it.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

high winds


High Wind Warning for Rowan, NC
Issued by The National Weather Service
Greenville-Spartanburg, SC
2:43 pm EST, Wed., Feb. 10, 2010
A HIGH WIND WARNING REMAINS IN EFFECT UNTIL 6 AM EST THURSDAY.
STRONG NORTHWEST WINDS WILL CONTINUE ACROSS MOST OF UPSTATE SOUTH CAROLINA AND EXTREME NORTHEAST GEORGIA. SUSTAINED WIND SPEEDS OF 30 MPH ARE LIKELY WITH GUSTS OF 50 TO 60 MPH POSSIBLE.
THE COMBINATION OF WET SOIL AND STRONG GUSTY WINDS WILL LIKELY RESULT IN NUMEROUS DOWNED TREES AND POWER LINES THROUGH EARLY EVENING WHEN GUSTS WILL BE STRONGEST.
PRECAUTIONARY/PREPAREDNESS ACTIONS...
A HIGH WIND WARNING MEANS A HAZARDOUS HIGH WIND EVENT IS EXPECTED OR OCCURRING. SUSTAINED WIND SPEEDS OF AT LEAST 40 MPH OR GUSTS OF 58 MPH OR MORE CAN LEAD TO PROPERTY DAMAGE.
TAKE STEPS NOW TO SECURE ANY LOOSE OBJECTS THAT MIGHT BE BLOWN ABOUT BY THE WIND. BE AWARE OF THE THREAT OF FALLING TREES AND POWER LINES TODAY. USE EXTREME CAUTION IF ATTEMPTING TO OPERATE ANY HIGH PROFILE VEHICLES OR MOTORCYCLES.
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have you ever felt like you were reading a chapter of your life, when you were just reading the weather?
Back in November, the Lord prompted me to write this:
My wind is blowing, the wind of My Spirit. It is knocking down anything that is not firmly rooted, anything not built on My foundation. Do not fear. I am to be trusted. I am not here to harm you, but to love you and protect you and care for you. As the waves crash on the shore, I am sending waves of My peace to My people who trust in Me. Do not fight the current of My Spirit. Calm yourself and allow Me to move you as I choose. In trust, there is peace and rest, even in the storm.
In the Bible, the Holy Spirit is likened to the wind. He is moving, blowing, and stirring. He can move in ours hearts as a gentle refreshing wind, like a cool breeze. Or He can move as a wild gusting gale, like a tornado or a hurricane. We cannot stop the wind from blowing, nor can we see exactly where it is going or why. But we can feel it, sense it, and see its effects. The wind is life-giving, carrying seed to scatter across the earth. The wind can also be destructive, tearing things down, uprooting things in its path. Either way, the wind brings change. It marks new seasons, and helps transport us to new places.
If I fight the wind, I might be dashed to pieces. So, I choose to trust, accepting His peace and rest, in the midst of yet another storm. And in the end, I know, He is taking me somewhere I never would have gone on my own.
"The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit." John 3:8

Thursday, February 4, 2010

arms wide open


ever since i was a kid, i have related to music. I've been referred to many times as a walking radio, for knowing song lyrics no matter what the station. in fact, i used to create my own "radio show" (with my fisher price tape recorder) that i affectionately called The Lover's Club, where I sang popular tunes from Disney movies. yes, lame i know.

when i got into middle school, my love for music grew deeper. i would literally sit in my room for hours by myself, just listening to music. it became a companion. my styles have changed a lot through the years, but one thing has remained the same - i love lyrics. so whatever music i'm into, i have to be into the lyrics. that's how i connect with it.

over the past few years, i have really gotten into worship music. not the regular christian radio stuff. but deep heartfelt, heart wrenching worship. one of my favorite singer/songwriters right now is a girl named misty edwards. she has dedicated the past 10 years of her life to God in study, celibacy, prayer, fasting, and worship. and the result is an amazing relationship with God, that reveals itself through powerful songs. one of her latest albums, and probably my favorite, is called Fling Wide.

recently i was listening to it on my iPod, and i got stuck on the last track: arms wide open. not only is it beautiful and real, but its challenging and it requires real honesty to worship God to.
check out the song here.

as i was worshiping with this album on, i hit this song and i broke into sobbing tears. in the song, she is asking God to show her what Love really looks like. beyond romance, momentary bliss, sentiment, selfishness, and selfish gain. all of life is supposed to come down to how we receive and give Love, so she is sincerely asking God to give her a revelation of real Love. and what He gives her is a vision.

Then I saw Him there, Hanging on a tree, looking at me
I saw Him there, Hanging on a tree, looking at me
He was looking at me looking at Him, staring through me
I could not escape those beautiful eyes, And I began to weep and weep

He had arms wide open, heart exposed, 

Arms wide open, He was bleeding, bleeding.
Arms wide open, heart exposed, 

Arms wide open, He was bleeding, bleeding
Loves definition, Loves definition, was looking at me...


wow. this picture of Jesus, giving not only of his deity, his humanity, his physical life - but of literally his whole heart, his whole being - for me. all out of love. the greatest love anyone has ever known, became weak and vulnerable and sacrificed itself completely for me. its so beautiful, it hurts.

she goes on to sing:

This is how I know what love is. This is how I know what love is.

And as I sat there, weeping, crying, those beautiful eyes 

Full of desire and love. And He said to me...
You shall love Me. You shall love Me. 

You shall love Me. You shall love Me.
With arms wide open, heart exposed, 

With arms wide open, bleeding, sometimes bleeding.

the very thought of this, of being so vulnerable to Him, or anyone for that matter, shook me straight to the core. i could feel the fear creeping in. and i wept. i became brutally honest. i told God i didn't know if i could love Him like that, so abandoned, so exposed. and He asked why. i knew right then, that what i was afraid of was being rejected. i was haunted with the thought of putting myself out there like that, and not being received, not being accepted, but being turned down and turned away with a broken heart.

what i was dealing with, was a spirit of rejection. [fyi...upon doing some research later, here are some of the varied ways this spirit manifests itself: through abandonment, being ashamed of physical appearance, having blocked intimacy, caring too much what others think, comparing yourself with others, fearful to witness, feeling inadequate, like God can't use you, like you are no good, like you would be the last one God would use for anything, like you're the victim, unwanted, unloved, unaccepted, unworthiness, intimidated, that others are unfair to you, persecuting you, inability to express love and affection, inferiority, isolation, letting people take advantage of you, loneliness, man-pleaser, martyr complex, mistrust, self-accusation, self-condemnation, self-hate, self-rejection, tendencies to withdraw, thinking you can't be forgiven.]

immediately i began rebuking the spirit of rejection off of me. and i spoke God's acceptance and love over me. almost instantaneously i felt a burden lifted. i was lighter. more free than i'd ever been. i wanted to run around town hugging everyone i knew! i have been set free from a spirit of despair, by the lover of my soul! and now i am able to receive His amazing love like never before. and it changes everything.


The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
       because the LORD has anointed me
       to preach good news to the poor.
       He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
       to proclaim freedom for the captives
       and release from darkness for the prisoners,

to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
       and the day of vengeance of our God,
       to comfort all who mourn,


and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
       to bestow on them a crown of beauty
       instead of ashes,
       the oil of gladness
       instead of mourning,
       and a garment of praise
       instead of a spirit of despair.
       They will be called oaks of righteousness,
       a planting of the LORD
       for the display of his splendor.